Fullmetal alchemist. Last episode.

Of course i saw the last episode of Fullmetal alchemist! Its when ed and al finally reclaim their bodies but realize in order to do so they are human once again. In a world where alchemy(mentality) no longer exist. That is their last episode, but i must say it is not the last for me. I now have trouble doing everything that i was able to do in my sleep. I remember all those days of power that are literally leaving me by the day. As it did 120305 when i lost my memories. But this time its different because there is a substitute. Well, i dont know what to say, its may im about to graduate but have no idea where im going. And quite frankly i still dont care. I should be dead right now, and i still kinda wish i was. So everything is kinda obsolete and these passions i threw my feeble life at: tennis, robotics, skateboarding, guitar. They are so Materialistic that i see right through them when MY reality slaps me in the face at night. Im glad im human because now i can flirt with females again and have a good time. But it never follows through because i still have memories, and the old thomas did a almost perfect job cursing me. I remembered how it felt to truely love again recently and now. Its interesting. blahh everything is blahh right now. I wrote this entry cause i remember how i used to be. how i am. how blind the world is. And how this song. Seven Years. Taunts my life. Im pretty much depressed right now. hopefully that changes soon. I have a Bls prom date named Jannie. Shes a female gamer XP awesome and she has a just very average personality. One i can hold a conversation with anytime anywhere. Today is also mothers day. I havent said happy mothers day yet because my sisters havent and i woke up after them so i didnt feel like initiating it. what else?. Guitar. its w/e lol..atm moment at least. Its a rather outrageous situation. what else?. Idk. Ap physics test tomorrow. this entry helped clear my head of everything im thinking about right now. But it brought my mood down cause of the fact that now its on the table and idk what to do with it. So like a book, ill just close this window. and read this entry a few months from now and say wtf and everythng will go Oooh. lol blah. bye.